A new year, new me?

We all say it. At the start of each new year, this will be MY year. MY year to finally get healthy, eat right, excersize. Take care of ME.
Usually it lasts if we're lucky, a few weeks - maybe even a few months.
But soon, old habits creep in, and we're back to where we started - if not worse.

I've struggled with my weight, for well as long as I can remember.
Once I started college the pounds really started creeping up - I blamed it on the freshman 15, but really I just ate crap.

First I hit 170, then 190, and before you know it 200 pounds.
I swore once I hit 200 pounds I was going to do something about it.
But I didn't and what do you know? The weight just kept creeping up and creeping up.

Friends tried to tell me I hid it well, and I looked great - bless their hearts but I knew they were full of shit.

Then I got pregnant. I really did good at first, with eating well - which meant I hardly ate, even loosing weight because I was SO, SO sick for the first 5 months.
But then, when the morning/noon and night sickness wore off and I could eat? BOY DID I.

I made it my job to make up for loss time (or calories really). Pizza and Ice Cream were my pregnancy must haves. The day I delivered I had gained 42 pounds, which I guess is not the end of the world, but when you are already overweight? 42 pounds was a lot. After the baby came, I didn't have much of an appetite, your so busy and so sleep deprieved, you know the last thing you feel like doing is eating. At my 1st post partum appointment I had already lost 26 pounds. I couldn't see it, but felt good to hear it. Eventually within the next month I would loose the rest, just by eating small portions, and cooking healthy.

Long story short, I eventually gained all my baby weight back and some. SO NOT COOL.

But I know my issues, I eat crap. If I was a danish for breakfast I will eat a danish, if I want pizza for lunch I will eat pizza - and since I work late, I don't eat much if any dinner. I know that is not good for my metabolism. And soda. Soda is so bad, but I can't seem to kick that habit. I'll do really good for awhile and then bam, there it is again luring me in (damn you coke!!). I make bad choices. But I have the power to change that. And I'm trying. I'm trying to eat smarter, Oatmeal instead of pastries for breakfast, salads with lots of veggies, and protein for lunch, no regular coke - but diet (it's a start). And lots of water!!! Dinner is still a problem and I need to figure out a way around that. Maybe another small salad or some soup? Not sure.

But my point is I'm trying. Trying to make better choices.
Baby steps. But I have to do something. I want to be around for my girl, I want to see my grandkids grow up. I don't want to face the same health problems, that I see so many overweight people face. So I'm making the time, I'm putting in the effort, and hopefully with some changes, and a hard work I can finally do this once and for all!!!

Wish me luck!!!!!

Linking up with Michell for Doing You Well Wednesdays. Won't you join in??!!