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Wednesday, February 3, 2010

Speaking too soon

So yeah, remember how I said last week that morning sickness had taken a hike?

Well, it's back.

Came back yesterday morning with a vegenance.
Hubby looked at me, oh so sweetly and said "You're not going to throw up, just relax" like he was talking me down from a ledge or something.
It didn't work, but the gesture was sweet nonetheless.

Today I'm feeling pretty lousy again - no energy, nauseas, just blah.

I made the mistake of having pancakes and syrup for breakfast this morning and I think it made my blood sugar spike, because I got the shakes after - so now I've been stressing all day about gestational diabetes - what if I have it? What will we do?

I mean, do all first time moms do this? Stress about the craziest things?
Because lately, that's all I can do.

We have our big Level II ultrasound coming up at 20 weeks. This is where they check all the organs, making sure the kidneys & heart are functioning properly & if we're lucky hopefully we'll get to see this little bunnies parts. As excited as I am about this appointment, and really? I'm excited. I'm also super nervous. Nervous that things won't go as planned, nervous that we'll get bad news, nervous that in a moment the happiness that we've felt for the last 17 weeks could all be taken away. Hubby says I'm being "morbid" and I'm "mind fu**ing" myself. I think I have pretty legimate fears, don't you? I asked my SIL a few weeks ago, if I was normal for stressing so much - did she when she was pregnant w/bug? "Yep" she said, "and it doesn't stop once the baby comes, you just have new things to stress about".

Great! A lifetime of worrying? I don't think target makes a bottle of tums big enough for that.

4 comments:

Mel Heth said...

Awe congratulations! Clearly, I'm behind in my reading.

Try not to stress about stuff. Try to be in the moment and enjoy everything you're experiencing as this little one grows inside you.

Mel Heth said...

Awe congratulations! Clearly, I'm behind in my reading.

Try not to stress about stuff. Try to be in the moment and enjoy everything you're experiencing as this little one grows inside you.

Etsuko said...

Good luck! You'll LOVE it!

meganboley said...

I am sorry if my comments came through several times, but I am having trouble with my browser. Thanks for stopping by! Good luck on the big 20 week ultrasound and I hope you start to feel better very soon. Congratulations!