So yeah, remember how I said last week that morning sickness had taken a hike?
Well, it's back.
Came back yesterday morning with a vegenance.
Hubby looked at me, oh so sweetly and said "You're not going to throw up, just relax" like he was talking me down from a ledge or something.
It didn't work, but the gesture was sweet nonetheless.
Today I'm feeling pretty lousy again - no energy, nauseas, just blah.
I made the mistake of having pancakes and syrup for breakfast this morning and I think it made my blood sugar spike, because I got the shakes after - so now I've been stressing all day about gestational diabetes - what if I have it? What will we do?
I mean, do all first time moms do this? Stress about the craziest things?
Because lately, that's all I can do.
We have our big Level II ultrasound coming up at 20 weeks. This is where they check all the organs, making sure the kidneys & heart are functioning properly & if we're lucky hopefully we'll get to see this little bunnies parts. As excited as I am about this appointment, and really? I'm excited. I'm also super nervous. Nervous that things won't go as planned, nervous that we'll get bad news, nervous that in a moment the happiness that we've felt for the last 17 weeks could all be taken away. Hubby says I'm being "morbid" and I'm "mind fu**ing" myself. I think I have pretty legimate fears, don't you? I asked my SIL a few weeks ago, if I was normal for stressing so much - did she when she was pregnant w/bug? "Yep" she said, "and it doesn't stop once the baby comes, you just have new things to stress about".
Great! A lifetime of worrying? I don't think target makes a bottle of tums big enough for that.