Last Week

Last week marked my first week back to work after being home for nearly 4 months (7weeks post baby). To say walking out the door Tuesday morning was hard would be an understatement.
I could hardly look at my baby girl curled up in her pj's sound asleep in her swing. But I gave her a kiss and out the door I went, crying all the way to the train station - mascara running down my face. Once I got to the train station, I fixed myself up and tried to pull it together. I thought "women have been doing this for decades, get it together".
And just like that I did. I tried to take the once dreaded 90 minute train ride to catch up on some reading (''the baby whisperer" GENIUS!) and listen to some new tunes (Ray Montagne if you must know!). Dare I say it, it was actually kind of nice. Don't get me wrong I would have given my left and right leg, at that point to not have to be there. But, I had a whole hour to myself. One not involving having to do copius amounts of laundry, baby bottles or poopie diapers. Not bad!!
Although I couldn't wait to get home to my little girl, a few hours away did me good, in fact hopefully it only makes our time together that much better. Someone told me last week "it's not about the number of hours you spend with them neccessarily but what you make of it while you are there", and I thought - SO TRUE! So I went home Tuesday night and gave Sophia a bath, stayed up a little later with her, and even took over dad's late night feeding. Because I wanted to. In fact, I needed that extra time with her. To kiss her, to hug her, to love on her a little more. Besides, really who needs sleep when there's chubby baby legs to bite?

One Month

On Saturday, my sweet little girl turned one month old. Can you beleive it? Yeah, me neither! I feel like it was just yesterday she was born, and we were making our way home together. Over this last month, I've learned so much about myself and my girl. For one, you can survive on three hours of sleep - not so much two, but three is good. Two - my girl has her papa's impatience (which should be just GREAT in a few years!).

She's as sweet as can be, but if she's hungry watch out! There is no getting it to her fast enough!

She loves snuggling with mama and papa late at night and hanging out with her cousin Ian.

She loves story time, and early mornings with her big sister.

She loves her big brother and follows him around the room wherever he goes.

She loves Sunday visits from her Aunt DD and Cousin Ian, although I think mama loves them more.

She is by far, without a doubt the greatest thing I've ever done and I will spend the rest of my life making sure she always knows it.

My Girl

On 7/21/2010 at 7:42 am, my entire universe shifted, I became a mom and welcomed my beautiful daughter Sophia Josephine into the world.

It's crazy to think that next week, little miss sophia will turn 1 month old.

Wow, where did the time go?!! I feel like she’s been here forever but at the same time I feel like it was just yesterday when we first laid eyes on her.

The last three and a half weeks have been amazing, trying, sleepless, so hard, but unbeleivably joyful at the same time.

I wasn’t prepared how much things would change, how much I would change - I guess you can never really wrap your head around it when people say life will never be the same, I never understood until know when they said you will love your child like nothing else, it’s something you can’t describe or put into words until it happens to you - but this little girl, has my heart fully and completely now until the end of time.